The Valley of Nothingness

Ah, yeah, finally a place for me and my other self to talk to each other. Usually we only have one place to do so which is in our mind, but I think it's too small for the two of us after such a long time, so why don't we move to a little bigger place here? It's nice to move to a newer place for a change, doesn't it?


Well, I agree. But honestly I hate to have a change. Why don't we just stay and ignore anything else?


It's ok, I'll be with you all the time. I'll be your guide here. So, if you have any trouble, don't hesitate to ask.


Trouble? I think I'm quite familiar with that. It comes and goes like a wind. You can't see it, but you can feel it, and it can effects you in anyway it wants it to be.


That's part of life, isn't it?


I know, but then how can we have a peace of mind in this life? I tried to ignore and sleep, and hope it will go away by itself.


Nah, it's not like that. You have to deal with it, no matter how small or big it is.


But why I have to? Can I just ignore it all?


You can't. You have to face it. Be brave. Besides, you are not alone. We have a lot of friends.


I don't know. Are they our friends? Or are they just some group of people who just walk past through you and don't even look at you and say "How are you?" or "Nice to see you again"?


Perhaps they are just busy. Have you tried to contact them anyway?


No. Why should I? I'll just bother them if I contact them first. Besides, like you said, maybe they are just busy.


Well, at least you got me. I'm always around.


But what can you do for me? More like, what can we do to ourself? What we are doing here is just like a crazy people.


I'm just trying to help.


I appreciate that. Thank you for this new place anyway. But whether it will do any good for me, or us, only time will tell.

 

Hi, hello there. How you doing?


Nothing much.


Hmm...how are you feeling atm?


Dunno. It's always been in a mixed condition, or more like a mess.


What is it?


Things going through my mind everyday, but I'm helpless and can't do anything about it, so I pretend there's nothing wrong and everything is just fine.


How about you tell me more what's going on? Maybe I can help.


You should have known everything about me. I'm you anyway. And we're far far away from being able to do anything about it now.


I know. But there's must something at least I can do for you.


Yeah, like making a call or chatting can do any good. I've told you before being this far will only create troubles, and know you can see it by yourself.


But if I didn't do this, I wouldn't have anything much.


And at the same time you're also losing 'something'.


I...


Sooner than later, you're gonna lose 'it' forever.


*sigh* I don't know. I can only pray that's not gonna happen. You should have done the same thing.


You know that's not me at all. You think you're an optimistic guy, but in fact you're just a coward and pessimistic about everything.


...

 

Hey, you there?


Yeah, I'm here.


Tell me something funny, I'm bored to death here.


Hmm? Why all of sudden?


Forget it.


I'm sorry, I can't recall any joke atm. What happened?


Nothing. Now you can leave.


*sigh* Ok then.

 

Hey, what do you think of what we are doing now?


Nothing.


I feel like really wanna quit this and just go back home.


Fine. But then you'll struggle again to find a job. Why should you quit when you have such a nice job here?


Actually not a nice job. I don't know. Even sometimes I think I shouldn't have taken this job at all.


Yeah, you didn't even a have any saving at all back then. But now you have one! Are you an idiot?


I know. But... as you should have known, since moving here, another 'big' problem arised, and now I'm totally confuse how to deal with it. I have no way out to deal with this 'issue'.


Don't be a fool, money comes first. You need money for life. Everything needs money. Without it, you're nothing.


But even when you have money, you're feeling lonely and you can't just pretend everything is fine.


Why not? When you have money, you can do anything. Just go out and have some fun. Besides, you're not alone there, there are people around. It's you who make yourself secluded.


Yeah, I don't think I can be friends with them. I just wanna get out of here sooner than later. I guess I don't have any other option for now but to hang on. But how do I deal with that 'issue' I mentioned earlier? It's slowly driving me crazy.


None of my business. Solve it yourself.


Hey, you are me. So you're supposed to help me.


Don't look at me. Do you think I can give any suggestion? You're just talking to a mirror.

 

Hello there. It's been quite some time.

Hi. I thought you've forgotten about me completely.

Honestly, for a time, I did. But here I am again. Sorry.

Well, it's ok. So how is it now?

As you can see, lots of things happened. So many things had changed as well.

Tell me then.

I will. But for now let's keep it simple to warm things up. It's been a while since we the last time we talked to each other.

Very well. Take it easy. I won't be going anywhere anyway.

 

You know, what...

I know. I know what you're gonna say.

Wait, what? How...?

It's funny and ridiculous. Just f*cking hilarious.

Just how in the hell my sandals was taken by someone else, in a temple?!

Hahaha.

And since of course I didn't have any spare with me, I had to get back home without anything covering my foot.

Lol!!! Well, at least you're not going home on foot. You're riding your bike, weren't you?

Well, yeah...

Hahaha. Don't worry, you're just paying back the bad deed you did in your past life.

Hope so. Let's hope at least the one who took it, take a good care of it.

Aw... you... Hahaha

Tsk, had a good laugh?

I did. Hahaha.

Sigh...

 

Hello there, my imaginary friend. It's been ages.

Hey! I thought you've forgotten me already. Again.

Nah... I still remember you. You're inside me, remember?

Ah, of course.

So..., you know what's been happening lately since last year. And it keeps dragging on.

Yeah, I know. What would you even care, really? It's none of your business, why should you be involved?

Sigh... I dunno. Honestly I really don't any of it, and keep a blind eye, but on the other hand I can't really do it. It's frustating.

What an idiot you are! Why would you be any part of it when you're not even there when it happened?

Can't just let them went to shit, can you?

Yes, you can! Why not?! Now you know that being helpful only makes you stress out.

It IS hard being helpful after all.

Then why keep doing it, dummy?! Just get yourself out already!

I... Sigh... I can only pray to Dear God to lead and show the best way possible for this to end as soon as possible. May storm passes and let the sea be calm again.

Unbelievable!